birthday wishes

I was planning to wake hours before my usual schedule so we can have a dinner at least. No I didn't buy you a gift. I didn't buy you another bouquet of roses also because that was what I have been doing for years. I just wanted to be with you I suppose.

Instead I happily sent those little cute emoticons on our Facebook chat. It was you who suggested we can just have breakfast today because you understand how much I value my sleep because of my work.

You woke up late and we didn't meet. I am happy though. I would love to think you had a blast because you were able to have a celebration with your friends last night. I wonder what could have been different though since it has been your weekly habit anyways, drinking with them. I suppose you foot the bill.

You know I stopped celebrating my own birthdays years ago. I have my reasons. It doesn't mean however that I stopped understanding people who value their special day. I should have never agreed to your suggestion. We could have had a nice dinner to some fancy food place we don't normally go to. I would be delighted to pull the tab.

Anyways, it was over, so cheers to you my love. I wish you all the best life can offer and remember you don't have to share your blessings with me. I would always be okay knowing that you are happy.

I would be sleeping now.

attitude

How does that famous essay about attitude go again? It goes something like you controlling your own mind-set. You may not possibly change the attitude of those around you but you can modify your attitude towards them. For it is indeed draining to get annoyed non-stop; I'd rather pretend they're dead

I have come up with that realization weeks ago but I am not sure how come I can not apply it- say at work (I must start with somewhere so I choose my work because that is where most of my interaction with other people takes place.) Could it be that after all these year I am still that sensitive?

If so, then how would I get an invisible armor for my still overly sensitive personality? Sure I can pretend that I don't care at all with all that nonchalance look but how would I turn that to real indifference?

 --from my journal: Friday, January 4, 2013 11:17 AM

on gadgets

Something new always comes up. It seems like every year manufacturers would offer something new to the public. But when you think about it, it is just a minor improvement to the previous one.

I think it all boils down to sucking people's money and I have a conspiracy theory about it.

I don't think that those people responsible for these technologies actually made improvements on let say yearly basis. I am thinking they had the right and perfect technology of some of these gizmos already but somehow released lesser versions of it first so they can milked the consuming public particularly those who always want an upgrade and have fears of being left behind.

Kung ako ay isang diktador ng bansang ito, mag-iimpose ako ng five year waiting period before importing new electronics. Siguro mas iingatan ng mga tao kung ano ang meron sila. Halimbawa sa cellphones. Ang siste kasi parang ang buhay na lang ng cellphones ngayon ay dalawang taon at the most. Mabilis manawa ang mga tao dahil nga laging may bago. Two years for most people is way too long to have a gadget that is still running because they have this mind set that they have to catch up with whatever the latest is.

It would be only then, every five years, that consumers would have a major upgrade not just incremental updates.