on writing

Halos tapos na ang kalahati ng taon. And to borrow my office mate's litany, “wala pa din akong achievement sa buhay”. He used to say that a lot and we just laugh about it. Kasi naman madalas sasabihin nya ito out of the blue maisingit lang ba (“ Wala pa ding reply yung isang department sa e-mail ko. Two weeks ago na yun. Anong petsa na? Tapos wala pa din akong achievement sa buhay.) I haven't talked to him that much na nga since I stopped smoking. Sa yosi breaks lang naman kasi kami nakakapag-chikahan na walang ibang eepal. Lol.

So yun na nga ilang kembot na lang July na. And my gulay I just posted two entries for this blog-blogan of mine. Tamad ko noh. Even my journal na naka-save sa PC eh bungal-bungal din. May mga times na aaraw-arawin ko magsulat minsan naman mga ilang linggong hindi ko talaga ito bubuksan.

I haven't disclosed (yet) my identity on this site thinking that it would give me freedom to write whatever crazy thoughts I have. Hind rin eh. Wala naman kasi masyadong ganap sa buhay ko and I am afraid that if just narrate in details the mundane life I have, I might regret it badly in the future. Alam mo yun feeling na cringe galore ka kasi ang chaka na nga ng storlyine, mas chaka lalo how you wrote about it. May mga ilang posts kaya ako na dinelete ko lol. Sana wala pa talaga nakabasa kasi it so yuck talaga haha.

What about fictional achuchuchu ganyan? O sige maybe in the future. Mas mahirap 'ata yun ha kasi dapat my command ka talaga sa written language. Eh ako I would like to think of myself that I can tell the difference between what is literature and what is plain trash. Taray. Boplaks nga lang me magsulat.

Way back in high school, there was this workbook called Write to Express Not to Impress. Award! You know what they say about writing: you have to do it daily five hundred words a minimum so it would be part of your system. I did that for a couple of days you know just writing about anything without thinking much of the grammar and all. It is a good practice huh but the downside of it is that at times you would realize you've got to stop. That is because you start noticing that you sound like those annoying talkative people in your office. Or those friends you have in Facebook na wagas makapag-shoutout nang kung anik-anik. Hindi man lang ba pinag-isipan.

So ayan siguro naman simula ngayon sisipagin na akong magpost. Hindi ko naman kailangan ng madaming makakabasa ng kung ano mang kababawan, kabalbalan at kabaliwan mayroon ang blog na ito. Susme the thought of someone, even just someone, reading what I have written gives me the shivers. Charot.

tony

Wala akong date this weekend kasi out of town si bhe. Buti na lang ginising niya ako kaninang 9:00 PM kasi talagang pinlano kong panuorin ang Tony Awards. Wala naman akong gala sa labas. In fact hindi pa nga ako lumalabas ng bahay simula kahapon ng Biyernes na naka-leave ako.

Kakatapos lang ng progrma habang sinusulat ko 'to. Ang haba ah tatlong oras 'ata pero sulit naman kasi kahit na-enjoy ko ang mga performances. Hindi na 'ko nakapanood ng teatro simula nang magdrop-out ako sa college. Earlier at least I was able to catch a glimpse of what Broadway has to offer. Kelan kaya ako makakapunta ng New York?

Bakit nga ba hindi ako nakakapanood ng local theather productions? Ay maharlika ka nga kasi eh.

Anyways here are some of the notable things I have seen in watching the awards.

• Hugh Jackman hosted, he's great and I love him. If they created Rocky the musical (which is so gay lol), they should come up also with Wolverine the musical. For the win!
• Si Fran Drescher (The Nanny of course) ay may play. Award. She hasn't age I think and yes she still has that unmistakable one of a kind voice of hers. Co-presentor nya si Ethan Hawk (Dead Poet Society, Reality Bites) na tumanda ng three times! My gosh I used to have a little crush on him. I haven't seen Great Expectations (1998) yet pero dun ko siya bet na bet. Hay kabataan! Lol.
• Idina Menzel (If/Then) performed and oh my she was on her elements (as if naman napanood ko na siya ng live dava hihi). Tagal ko kasi makaget-over sa Oscar performance nya na sinumpa 'ata ni John Travolta.
• Kamukha din ni Idina yun kasalukyang Elphaba huh. I was enjoying her duet with Glinda but the signal was gone for about a few minutes. Anong problema nyo Sky Cable. Kaloka. I thought I wouldn't be able to finish the whole award show.
• Sting performed but I couldn't understand him. Sorry.
• I enjoyed the snippet of A Gentleman's Guide to Love and Murder. It won the Best Musical. I would love to see it. Yun ata yun play the may Pinoy producer. Taray. Sigh.
• Walter White won! I mean Bryan Cranston (All the Way). They have shown few seconds of him playing the part of President Johnson. Parang si Walter lang din naman 'ata with Texan accent lol. Impression ko lang naman yun from those few seconds.
• There's this musical about Carol King and the lead actress, Jesse Mueller, won. Ganda ng boses nya ah. In fairness nagandahan din ako sa boses  sa nominated na si Sutton Foster (Violet). Kala ko nga si Sutton mananalo. Taena. Kung makapanghula ako eh no kala mo napanood ko yung mga plays. Lol
• Dr. Doogie Howser won! Of course I mean Neil Patrick Harris for Hedwig and the Angry Inch. I haven't seen much of How I Met Your Mother so he would be always Dr. Doogie for me. Hay ano ba kabataan moment na naman ba lol. His perfomance must be so taxing seeing him perform one of the songs from that musical. Mum was watching with me and I was about to explain to her what musicals and theater is all about (since I had joined the university's repertory-for two weeks only lol) but Neil kissed some random guy from the audience! In the mouth! Mum got bored and went to sleep hahaha.

So there. You know why I love watching awards shows like this? It gives me inspiration. Old and jaded as I am, somehow it gives me a little push- who knows someday I would be getting my dreams as well.

Winners say dreams do come true. I would love to believe it too.

teki-teki kunwari

Sa madaling araw lang kaya ako nakakapag- Youtube. 'Eto naman kasing Sun Broadband sa mga ganong oras lang mabilis at halos hindi mo na magamit sa araw. Ironic. Buti na nga lang yung promo nilang unlimited for three days eh unlimited talaga. Hindi katulad sa Globe, yung una kong stick na nabilli, pagnaka- 800MB ay sorry stop ka muna. Isang taon ko kayang pinagtyigaan yun at hindi ko man lang nakuha yung Globe Points ko dun. Tanga lang.

Last week nanuod na naman ako ng mga videos tungkol sa Mac OS. Siyempre pangarap kong magkaroon ng Mac. Ewan. Feel ko lang. Feeling mayaman that is ha ha. Pero wala akong balak pag-ipunan ang isang MacBook Air kasi overpriced kaya siya sa isang dukhang katulad ko na gumagamit lang ng laptop para magsurf sa net at maglaro ng mga apps na pambata (I'm not a gamer.) 'Pag can afford na ako bumili nun ibig sabihin milyonaryo na ko. Sa kasalukuyan masaya na ako sa sa Acer ko na 'to kasi touch-screen na at may dvd writer pa (old school, para sa mga nahihiram kong dvds ha ha). At hindi tulad ng iba, I am loving Windows 8.1. From Windows XP ba naman sino hindi matutuwa 'di ba. Ang bilis! Effort nga lang sa umpisa na pag-aralan lalo na yung unang labas na version. Kalerkey. Buti na lang touch-screen nga ito dahil mawiwindang din ako pag-track pad lang ang gamit.

So ayun nga I had this laptop mag-iisang taon na. Ang lagi kong ginagawa kung magra-right click eh pindutin/diinan 'tong kanang babang bahagi ng touchpad. Eh para dun naman talaga yun 'di ba. Sa instructional youtube vid na napanood ko, sa mga Macs daw ang right click ay pwedeng gawin sa pagtap sa trackpad ng dalawang daliri sabay. Sinubukan kong gawin sa akin aba ay gumana. Biruin mo all this time ay hindi ko alam gamitin ng maayos itong laptop ko. Kamote. Well, sinilip ko ang users manual habang sinusulat ito at wala naman pala talagang nabanggit ukol dito. Not entirely my fault. So ayan tap galore with two fingers ako since then.

Wala akong anti-virus program hanggang ngayon. Pinagpaubaya ko na lang sa Windows Defender. Sa luma kong laptop, na-try ko pareho ang Avast and Avira. Parehas lang naman. Parehas lang may nakakalusot na malware. Mahusay din ang Malwarebytes. Hindi na nga lang talaga ako nag-install ng kung anu-ano baka kasi magcrash lang. Nagpapabagal pa. Siguro infected na 'tong laptop. I wouldn't know. Sana hindi. Bukod sa mga apps sa Windows Store eh wala na naman akong dinadownload na programs. Ewan ko na lang sa mga hihiram kong usbs.

Sa youtube video na nabanggit ko, natutunan ko din ang isang extension na mahusay: disconnet me. What it does is that it would disconnect those sites who are known to track users for whatever intensions, usually for ad purposes. Sana available din na yun sa Internet Explorer. Yes I use IE from time to time dahil well wala lang. Maiba lang ng interface. I use the modern version para full screen siya. And good this there's this app called Read it Better para i-save yung mga articles for later reading.. Yung Microsoft own's Reading List kasi hindi mo mababasa ang mga saved pages offline.

Ang next phone ko sana isa sa mga Lumia models. 'La lang love ko na ang Windows eh. Sana i-manage lang nila ng todo an kanilang app store hindi katulad sa Google Play na ang dami-dami ngang apps karamihan wala namang kwenta. Iba't ibang versions lang ng same shit. Buhay pa naman 'tong Galaxy Y ko at matatapos na contract ko sa Globe. Nauna na pala si jowa magrenew, Galaxy S5 ang kinuha. Sosyal kasi yun eh. Sana gumana pa yung ipapamana nyang S3 sa mama nya. Nalubog kasi nung nagseselfie sa jacuzzi. As for me ipapamana ko din itong Galaxy Y ko kay mudra. Nakuha ko itong i-root so baka hindi ko na ibalik sa dati ma-brick ko pa.